Today is totally a weird day, everyone has their emotional times, i know well myself that at times i have 30 minutes down time, then i will be ok. Today is different. I slept for so long for the first time, from 11pm to 9am. And then i knew that i woke up at the wrong side of the bed. Everything amid of busy atmosphere, you just often have this very simple seasonal break down, that you see all the things you are working on is left hanging and many undone. All the plans seem to have a big barrier.
and recently i got hook up to this song.
"Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky, are like shooting stars,
I could use a wish right now, wish right now, wish right now."
You ask me what type of wish, like locking myself in the room and study everyday and come out as smart as Einstein. Like just blog whole day about Green issues and penetrate the virtual passion rather than dealing with so many seems to be impactless green projects. Like stop falling into the wrong person and just wonder when is the next princess to come.
Yes, these are craps. OK perhaps i am sick right now that's why. Because nothing during Emotional times you think is right, because what you think automatically turns helpless even though they are tonnes of facts against your thoughts. And everytime i will do is, ask myself Why, Why, Why, Why. I think i remember learning this during LLDS first year, which i remember Muslih and Jiong Kit were giving workshop in the Seminar.
Just think, why again you are the way you are right now, then why you want to be busy and go all out for the activities, then why again you want to know so many people, then another why, you will actually realize how it links back to your Purpose of life. Which again, if you do not really know, found, or identified, there is no point of struggling in everything you do, because simply you do not look forward for something.
An example will be such, Michael Teoh sent me an email about the invitation to berbuka puasa with our dear Prime Minister in Putrajaya tomorrow, i could have accepted, and rush down to Putrajaya tomorrow just to meet him. Even Wilson and Jazz are going, that is really tempting. But again i think, it's not something i really want even though the grand reasons behind it. I am totally done with networking, and being popular is totally not my cup of tea.
"Like what i mention before, networking is not all about meeting people, but letting the right people to meet you. You have a sharemarket, which you cannot ask too many people to buy."
Because all i will sum up is, Life is awesome because God is awesome.
Isiah 40:31. "they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.
The never failing verse for years that kept me promised.
p/s wow i write post faster during emo, 10 minutes. LOL